July 27, 2007

down in the funk...

I've heard a lot of talk lately about being in a funk, depression and what not. It happens to the best of us. And yes, it happens to me.

I found out a few weeks ago that one of the guys that I was in PC with decided to ET (early terminate). It stuck me pretty hard. He was one of the guys that I thought was really cut out for PC, he was level-headed and easy to get along with. I had a lot of respect for him (and I couldn't say that about everyone in the group). He is leaving because it's just not the right place for him to be. I know that feeling. I'm not sure why it hit me but it did.

And then I realized that I've been in a sort of funk since I came home. I haven't really talked about it with anyone because it is hard to put my finger on. And there isn't really anyone who knows exactly what I went through in Africa. Seeing Dara last month helped, and talking with her, but other than that, well, it's kinda lonely.

The good news is that thanks to CleanPlace (the teen writing forum), I'm starting to find some sense of purpose again. Granted, it complicates things like future plans, but what doesn't?

Am I any closer to understanding my life? No. Do I have any idea what I'll be doing in six months? Not a clue. But that's okay. I'm still in a funk but I'm sure it won't last forever.

1 comment:

MangyCat said...

I'm sorry to hear you're in a funk, but I'm encouraged that you are finding purpose in your day-to-day (and on CleanPlace at that!). I don't know what you're going through exactly, but do let me know if you need any hugs. You're so good at giving them, remember to receive too! Love ya, girl.